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My Diamond Lola

My lola is indeed precious to me and she is more than a diamond. But the diamond I am referring to was her 75th birthday last October 15.

(full blog coming soon… just busy.)


Powerless

Something sad was revealed to me this morning.

I was having my breakfast when my lola (grandmom) joined me and sat down in front of me. A conversation strike up and we started discussing her incoming 75th birthday. I was playing dumb that time ‘coz I don’t want to ruin the surprise party we’re throwing for her. I know she’s excited and I can see it her eyes. But somewhere along our conversation, she said something that made me sad. She told me she peed on herself just the other day. She woke up that early morning and tried to get up as fast as possible but she couldn’t control it anymore and got herself wet. I al most laugh hearing her story. I half-jokingly said that she should start wearing diapers from now on. She said she wanted but she has no money to buy a set. Despite a jesting tone, she was dead serious. Then I start to realize something. What my lola was trying to say is that she’s getting old- really old. She’s starting to get weak and that’s very alarming. I always know her as a strong woman- both in will and in action. I looked up to her as a superhero. At such an age, she still runs errands for me, helps me fixed my clothes, prepares my things and a lot more. But lately, she’s been lazy and she’s becoming more emotional and having self-pity. Now, I understand what’s happening.

I don’t want to entertain any bad thoughts right now, but to see and realize that she’s getting older really makes me sad.

Geez, I hate this feeling. I feel so powerless with the truth I’m realizing. If only I have the ways, I will make time slower for her. Like what I told my best friend about my lola, I wanted her to live long and healthy enough to see me end up with the right girl and play with my kids, her great grandchildren. I would want my kids to experience how it is to be loved and cared by my lola. That would probably be the greatest gift I can give her, more than all the plans and material things I wanted to give her.

On a light note, my best friend told me that I should really consider giving my lola a great grand kid. I smiled and retorted back. If finding a girl was such a challenge for me, what more to have a kiddo? Well, unless I’ll do it on accident with some girl. I know my best friend was just trying to pull a leg that time. I only realize right now that I could have thrown it back by asking her if she’s willing to make it happen- to have a John Jr. or a Jane. Havent I mentioned that my best friend is a girl?


24 on the 27th

Updated!

Like my previous 16 birthdays, if my memory serves me right, July 27 this year passed by ordinarily. There were no big surprises that I’ve wanted to have. It would be great and fun if my recent set of friends in the office has planned for something like that. But I guess that’s too much since I have never been that influential to them. Sad, yes but it was ok. That’s really too much to ask. And asking them would mean desperation. Anyway, my NFF, or new found friends over at Single Friends of the Divine Mercy, the spiritual community I’ve joined last May, gave me a warm greeting and a gift I didn’t expect. I think that was the surprise God gave me- meeting all of them and undergoing a renewal. Aside from that intangible gift, they gave another one. It was a picture frame with my photo of course, plus a prayer dedicated to me. Simple but that elated me because I was just a newcomer in the community and still they celebrated it wit me. And despite some inhibitions I still feel with some of them, I feel so welcomed during that early celebration (held last July 23). I hope I can contribute to the community and be of service to God.

There was no grand celebration with my family. We just had dinner at home. It was followed by another simple dinner last night in Mall of Asia. I promised to treat them in Serendra (The Fort) that night but some recent development in the office (to be blog soon) caused me to save money for the rainy days. Next time, I’ll make it up with them- big time!

Me plus two friends

My group in the office and some friends still celebrated my birthday. On the 27th, I treat ten of my groupmates for snacks. The next day, I treated them for dinner over at Shakey’s. My boss contributed P500 to my budget. She knows I’m not that well off these days. That swayed my decision a bit (to be blog soon). The dinner went fine. Everybody was having fun. And despite some issues and worries I have, I still enjoyed the night. It’s the only celebration I have with my audit family throughout my almost 4 years stay in the firm. I won’t spoil the night being emo and doing some drama. That would have to wait ‘til the end of August (to be blog soon). There were no gifts received from them but their presence in the dinner was enough. The night was not grand, not really that memorable but it was a nice feeling to see them celebrate my birthday.

My bestfriend Clark, whom I haven’t got to see or talk to for months, greeted me via Facebook. We were supposed to see INCEPTION last night but we didn’t. I guess we’re busy doing our own stuff. I missed her. Hope to see her soon and catch up with each other.

By the way, on the night of my birthday, I went to gym. I was surprised when I swiped my ID and the sensor alarmed. I thought I was blocked. But it happened on purpose. When I look back to where the reception was (I was supposed to ask what’s the problem), they greeted me a happy birthday. That simply put a smile on my face. I realized that personal warm greetings of happy birthday from anyone- friends, strangers or enemies, can make a difference, bring delight and paint a genuine smile. That feeling was the common thing for all the celebrations happened. That’s the most precious thing I received on my birthday.

Still, any material gifts will be appreciated. =)


I love my parents!!!

I love my parents more after everything that has happened. I love my parents so much ‘coz they’ve been supportive of me from the start. They understand what I am going through and they honor my feelings, my pain.

I am not that super close to my parents but I do open up some matters when it comes to my career. I know they’ve been expecting the financial help the bonus would have contributed if only I have received it in full. We’ve been planning what to do with that money as early as last week of May. But I think it was a curse to count the chicks before the egg hatches. And after last night, I was having some trouble breaking the sad news to them. They’ve been eager to hear any updates about it. I know I might break into tears if I tell it to them face to face. But I have to tell it to them in any way. SMS. I did it through text message early afternoon.

Like me, they were frustrated too. Though they didn’t say anything, I know they are mad too. But instead of hearing the usual nags I get from them and the casual advice of me quitting my job whenever I have problems in the office, I didn’t hear anything unnecessary from them after my revelation. They knew I am down. And they knew how to comfort me- that is to act as if nothing happened. That was what I needed. And I thanked them for that.

It is in times like this when I feel their love to me. Not that they don’t love me everyday, but it is during these times of despondency when you get to appreciate it at greater extent. And I love my parents so much for loving me unconditionally. I wish I am doing enough for them to feel the immensity of my love, respect and appreciation of them. I wish I could tell it to them straight.

Note: My mom got sick today. I hope it won’t get so serious. Money is not so easy to come lately.

Something light: I’m running my second 5k race on August 1 for the Rexona Run 2010 in Mall of Asia grounds. I think it’s a nice way to get back to fitness after getting sick for a week. It’s a nice way to divert my attention away from the negativities also. And the singlet for the run is the best so far. The color black and gold look so classic. And the digital timing chip called D-Tag will be introduced in this race that’s why I’m excited. I hope the run wouldn’t be a disaster (an epic fail) like the Ace Hardware Eco-friendly Run.

Sorry for the messy room in the background.

Good luck to me! Hope to set a new personal best!

Photo credits.